It is starting to crumble in again. She is feeling the pressure of the outside world crushing her. Crushing her heart, her soul, and her mind.
She has been trying to climb and yet keeps falling.
She has tried to write it out, medicate herself, seeing doctors, meditate, speak to friends – but being told “everyone has those days or moments” breaks her even more. So she is becoming silent.
She has tried but cannot get through this pain. So she is failing.
Failing at getting over this hump and moving on.
And to her, that is the scariest thing of all.